A Step Backwards Into the Future

Good morning!

I haven’t written a lot in the past few months. I would like to say that I was too busy with Christmas preparations and before that the Halloween preparations and then of course my birthday before that and in the summer I was busy working around the house. I actually did do a fair bit of labour intensive work around the house, but managed to spread it over a couple of months.

The truth is I took a break.

I needed the break, last year my brother passed away and I don’t think I have really come to grips with the loss. I don’t deal with death very well, choosing to ignore it and just carry on with my life as if nothing has changed. Probably nothing has changed except for the way I look at and interact with the world. I’m working on it… Part of it is that I got to the point where I knew that I was writing for just a handful of people and a larger group that somehow managed to stumble upon the blog when they were Google…ing something interesting.

It has always been my intent to do the blog so that when I am gone the kids and grand kids will be able to read something I had written when they are feeling lonely or blue. That was the plan. I suppose that no matter what I say, I would like people to read the blog, dance around and toss rose petals at my feet. Well, rose petals or cash would be acceptable. That will never happen but it is nice to dream.

I have found that the last few months that have had sporadic blogs there has been something missing from my life. No matter what I did or didn’t accomplish each day the one thing that I could count on is that when people asked if I did anything I could look them in the eye and say, “I wrote my blog!” They would look back at me and I could tell they would have been as impressed if I had told them I had farted in a crowded elevator. It’s not about them, it is about me.

Well, starting today I am going to get back into a daily routine of writing the blog, not farting in elevators. I could do both I suppose. There is no reason I can’t excel at numerous things.

Here is to me taking a step backwards into the future!