A Step Backwards Into the Future

Good morning!

I haven’t written a lot in the past few months. I would like to say that I was too busy with Christmas preparations and before that the Halloween preparations and then of course my birthday before that and in the summer I was busy working around the house. I actually did do a fair bit of labour intensive work around the house, but managed to spread it over a couple of months.

The truth is I took a break.

I needed the break, last year my brother passed away and I don’t think I have really come to grips with the loss. I don’t deal with death very well, choosing to ignore it and just carry on with my life as if nothing has changed. Probably nothing has changed except for the way I look at and interact with the world. I’m working on it… Part of it is that I got to the point where I knew that I was writing for just a handful of people and a larger group that somehow managed to stumble upon the blog when they were Google…ing something interesting.

It has always been my intent to do the blog so that when I am gone the kids and grand kids will be able to read something I had written when they are feeling lonely or blue. That was the plan. I suppose that no matter what I say, I would like people to read the blog, dance around and toss rose petals at my feet. Well, rose petals or cash would be acceptable. That will never happen but it is nice to dream.

I have found that the last few months that have had sporadic blogs there has been something missing from my life. No matter what I did or didn’t accomplish each day the one thing that I could count on is that when people asked if I did anything I could look them in the eye and say, “I wrote my blog!” They would look back at me and I could tell they would have been as impressed if I had told them I had farted in a crowded elevator. It’s not about them, it is about me.

Well, starting today I am going to get back into a daily routine of writing the blog, not farting in elevators. I could do both I suppose. There is no reason I can’t excel at numerous things.

Here is to me taking a step backwards into the future!

End This Now

So, it is minus 21 but feels ten degrees colder. I have been out in colder weather, but it wasn’t what I would call a fun time. Doable, but not fun.

I have no real reason that I need to venture forth in unpleasant weather, but I will go for coffee, pick up the mail and every now and then I need to buy food. Worse case scenario I am outside for maybe five or ten minutes shovelling the snow. I do spend a lot of my day walking past windows, watching the wind blow snow sideways and feeling sorry for the poor sods that have to work outside on days like today. I was one of them for thirty years. No longer!

I am older and feel the cold a little more than I used to. Oh, I could still work outside and now and then I will test myself, but if I could choose I would be walking past windows and watching the palm trees blowing in the wind. Choices…

I can’t help but cast my mind back in time before central heating and synthetic filled jackets. I don’t even want to think about using outdoor facilities when it is below -30. I have had the pleasure when it was just above freezing and it wasn’t something I would want to do for any length of time. No reading on the can.

Can you imagine having to wake up to a home that was well below freezing and having to start the fire to make something warm to get you through the day of outdoor chores. Not my idea of how to live a life. I am happy to have been born when and where I was.

We set our thermostat to 15° C at night to save on the fuel bill while we are snuggled under several comforters. Right now it has dropped to 19° C and I am feeling the chill. I could go and adjust the temperature a few degrees while I finish the blog or I could end this now.